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Sadly, it's not all about TV interviews, booksignings in exotic locales, or sitting at the bar with literary friends trading bon mots as we sip our scotches. It's also days when my only writing accomplishment is coming up with a fresh twist on my bio for a con committee.

There's always a disconnect between how things look from the outside, and how they look from the inside. I started thinking about this over the weekend, when I received a note from one of my college friends, who called me an inspiration. The phrase made me blink for a moment. I don't feel like an inspiration, and surely Julie knows me well enough to know better. She lived with me for four years, and knows all of my bad habits. She witnessed the first sentient sock collection, as hours spent at the computer lab meant my laundry pile transformed from "needs washing" to "evolving lifeform." Strangers may see only the author, but surely a decades-old friend sees something different, right?

Or maybe not. After all, I've been published for ten years now, and have my twelfth novel coming out this summer. I haven't hit the bestseller lists, but I've managed a steady career. The doubts, insecurities and setbacks aren't on view to the casual observer--like the infamous sock pile, it's only those who are living the journey with me who see the rough spots.

Some days I take stock and think to myself "Wow, this is a great life, and it's good to be me." Other days my thoughts run along the lines of "Who knew happily ever after would be so hard?"

With a new book about to be released, I'm hoping for more of those "Good to be me" days. In the meantime, I'm glad I have writer friends with sock piles of their own to share the journey.

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Date: 2008-05-07 01:17 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] scbutler.livejournal.com
Of course you're an inspiration. How many authors can claim to have created sentience from socks?

Think that's bad...

Date: 2008-05-07 02:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zornhau.livejournal.com
...try the March Towards Debut Novel.

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Date: 2008-05-07 04:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jpsorrow.livejournal.com
Hey, Iron Man, some of us have more on you than just socks. *grin*

Re: Think that's bad...

Date: 2008-05-07 05:07 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pbray.livejournal.com
*sending good thoughts your way*

I know what that march is like, and how much endurance it takes. It just surprised me that there isn't a finish line at debut novel, it's just the start of the next marathon.

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Date: 2008-05-07 05:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pbray.livejournal.com
Well the toe socks were the first to develop opposable digits, and from there on the rest was inevitable.

Re: Think that's bad...

Date: 2008-05-07 05:28 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zornhau.livejournal.com
I think I'm well prepared for the marathon. The problem with debut novels is you learn by doing and end up with something very hard to unpick.

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Date: 2008-05-07 06:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pbray.livejournal.com
Shhhh! Save the good stuff for when I'm on Larry King.

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Date: 2008-05-07 09:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] califmole.livejournal.com
Because ultimately, it's all about the socks.

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Date: 2008-05-08 02:21 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] pbray.livejournal.com
If socks could read, I'd be their queen.

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